If you’ve been reading for awhile then you know how tough of a year this has been for me. The person where I found the root of so much joy in my life had passed away & I was having the worst time dealing with it. On top of that one shitty thing on top of the other kept happening & I just bailed on everthing because I didn’t know what to do with it. Tears were my new best friend.
But over the past two months something had changed. Out of no where I wasn’t as sad. Out of no where bad things stopped happening & I enjoyed things more. Out of no where I thought of my grandpa being gone less & the hole inside of me didn’t seem as dark.
I’ve felt happy. I’ve felt somewhat hopeful. Blame it on meeting certain people who have changed my perspective, blame it on my niece who was born, but things seemed to have turned around, & I’m just not as sad anymore.
When life seems great, it’s okay to let it be.
I sometimes feel guilty that I don’t get majorly bummed over my grandpa lately. It means I’m either healing, or I’ve mastered masking my true feelings about it & have shoved them deep down inside of me only to burst out dramatically at a later time. Whichever reality it is, I’m just rolling with it.
I’m happy. I’m content. I’m working hard & enjoying life again. When life seems great, maybe that’s because it actually is.
— abbey kay
*brought to you by a girl who isn’t (currently) sad